Eugene O'Neill
I am perfectly content right now, this whole weekend actually. I am just going with the flow, doing whatever. Nothing mad me overally happy or sad which I don’t think is such a bad thing. I am just chilling here with some banana ice cream in one hand and a computer mouse in the other working on a photoshop image. I find that I become content when I avoid everthing that make me angry. Today people were annoying me so I just walked away. I know this isnt how I should avoid problem, but today I just was not in the mood to get angry. I think a lot clearer when I am content, I don’t worry as much. I just take the little things and hold on to them like this banana ice cream. I wanted some, so I went and got some nothing was stopping me. I feel like I am always content with life now when it feels most like the future. Today I went to work, drove home, and then came home to an empty house. I could have done whatever I wanted and I love that feeling. I could have taken a nap, watched TV, or gone out. Is that what it’s like to live alone? Does that feeling get boring after a while? Because after a while my family did come home, they then of coursed started to annoy me so I came up here. After thinking about today and the weekend, I cant wait to live alone. I don’t mind being alone, eating/cooking alone, or doing anything alone. I am perfectly content with doing that alone, meaning I don’t mind if people do this with me, but they don’t have to. That’s all I got for now, theres not much my mind is thinking about today, finally a break from all the thinking.
*Now that I think about it, the only bad thing about living alone is that I'm scared of the dark and I get paranoid sometimes. So the lights would just be on at my house and I'd make sure everyday door and window is locked. (Maybe I could just get those glow stars, I have them in my room now. My siblings put them up while I was in china :D) them again right now my room is pitch black and I could care less, maybe I'm content with the darkness. Then when I'm scared its just my brain thinking to much...mhmm somthing to write about in a later post :)
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