Why do I care so much?

The closest thing to being cared for is to care for someone else.”
― Carson McCullers, The Square Root of Wonderful (7 of 365)

Why do I care so much when I know you don’t care at all? Well compared to me it seems that you don’t care anyway. I care what you think, what you say, and what you do. I care way too much and I can’t help it. There is just something about you that, I sit here and think, "What would they say about this?" and "Would they like this?" Why don’t I just ask you? Why do I just guess? I have no idea. Do I obsess over people with out even knowing? or am I aware and do it anyway? It almost makes me sad that I think this much about you when I know you don’t think about me at all. flih enfciodshfkcaweds-0ofpcxj That is my mind right now, so I shall go do some Zentangle and think because it seems that, that is what I am good at.
*Added quote after the fact*
SO maybe the reason I care is because one day I hope that you will care as much for me? Is that good? Bad? I'd say that it’s bad now because I know that nothing will ever come of this. Yet I think that it’s good because that means that the person who will eventually care back will be forever cared about. I don’t know, I am no where near any type of expert on relationships. People do tell me though that I am the greatest friend that they have and that they love being my friend. I am trusted by many, but I trust few. Does this say something about me? About them? More questions to consider. All I do know is that if I trust you, you are special to me. You are more to me then just another friend and for that I couldn’t thank you enough.